Thursday, December 6, 2012


I had the hardest time sleeping last night. My co-worker's 22-year-old daughter had a baby girl yesterday morning. She is adorable and precious and she makes my biological clock tick really loudly. I think I'm going to have to have a talk with Matt very soon. I was always one of those girls who wanted to wait until marriage to have kids. Matt doesn't want to get married right now. I don't understand his reasons, but I respect him and don't want to force him into marrying me when he doesn't want to...

The thing is, I was watching television and a girl on the show I was watching found out that at age 30, women lose 90% of their eggs. I googled it and it's true. I'm already 28+. I've got less than two years before I lose 90% of my eggs. Men can stay fertile forever basically, but women, not so much... I've already explained to him that women in my family have a hard time having babies as it is... At that time he still didn't want to get married, but he said, "Let's make a baby!" I told him not without a ring on my finger first and that was that...

The more I think about it, the more I'm not sure that I DO need a ring on my finger... Yes, it would be ideal. Yes, I should be married before starting a family. However, I have been with Matt for almost nine years. He makes me happy. He supports me. He is loving. I honestly believe that we will be together forever... regardless of his holdup that he doesn't want to get married. What does a marriage license prove?

I go back to the doctor on the 17th for another check up. I want to talk to Matt before then. If he's game with trying for a baby, I want to talk to my doctor about what I need to do to try to become pregnant. I mean, I know what you need to do to get pregnant, but medically speaking. I know I'll have to stop my birth control (duh), but should I wait a few months after stopping it before actively trying to become pregnant? I am also on my blood pressure medication and Prozac. I know she said that, should I get pregnant, my medications would have to change. If I'm actively trying to get pregnant, should they change before hand? Also, are there any methods of tracking that she finds beneficial?

I'm not getting ahead of myself here. I don't want to get all excited about the prospect, and then have my heart crushed if he doesn't want to try yet... I don't know what to expect when having this talk with Matt, but I do want children and it needs to be soon if I'm going to try at all. *sigh*

1 comment:

  1. oh i love your background on here. :) i already commented on this post on the other site. i hope the talk went well.


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