I've been fighting with myself all day. I hate the feeling. I want to
binge so badly. I just want to go buy a large Blizzard and scarf the
whole thing without thinking of the consequences. I've been craving
sweets all day. Probably because today is day one of trying to be good.
My day has looked alright... Breakfast was a cinnamon raisin bagel with a
wedge of Laughing Cow cream cheese. Morning snack was a s'mores granola
bar. Lunch was a Lean Cuisine meal and 1/2 cup of applesauce. My
afternoon snack was a strawberry banana yogurt. When I was home for
lunch, I had a cherry popsicle. My dinner will be Turkey Sausage
Spaghetti. I also logged one more popsicle.
I'm trying to get some sugar without ice cream. Ice cream is my
downfall. I made myself buy popsicles instead of ice cream or ice cream
sandwiches. I'm trying my damnedest to steer clear of the ice cream, but
it feels like a losing battle.
I'm supposed to return to the gym tonight. As much as I hate to say it, it's not going to happen. I really
do want to return. I'm excited at the prospect of getting in the habit
of working out again. I have a pretty severe headache. I'm thinking it's
caused by lack of sugar... I normally eat something amazingly sweet at
least once a day. I honestly think I'm going through sugar withdrawal.
Ugh.
Also, this is insanely gross, and I know that... Most dogs need their
anal glands cleaned out every so often. I refuse to do this. Rusty ends
up doing it on his own. We call it "butt juice". Disgusting... I know, I
know. But anyway, last night he was sleeping with me. When I woke up,
there was butt juice on the front of my cell. Cue gagging. Now I'm
really grossed out and feel like I need to go home and clean my sheets. I
feel... almost obsessive over the fact that I need to clean my sheets.
So, I'm going to go home and clean my sheets.
Ugh. Why is this so hard??? (rhetorical question)
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